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Wednesday, August 13, 2014

THE ROLLERCOASTER RIDE OF AUTISM



 
I'm awakened by his ear piercing screaming....
 
I enter his room and brace myself
  as he charges me full force.
The anger in his eyes meet mine.
He aggressively grabs my arm.
He releases his grip and runs back to the window.
 
This continues for hours....
 
I'm filled with
sadness,anger,and frustration.
I sit there utterly empty and drained.
 
I text my husband in tears.
Searching for answers....
I feel so helpless and confused.
 
I just want the screaming to STOP!
 
The tears finally dry up and I become numb.
It's the only way to deal with the pain.
I pray for the strength to get through this day.
I already feel like I have nothing left to give.
 
David walks towards the couch.
I sit in anticipation,fearful of what will happen next.
 
David smiles that big angelic smile and kisses me
 
My body relaxes
My heart is filled
My boy is back!
 
IN THAT ONE SIMPLE MOMENT
EVERYTHING CHANGED....